"But they that wait upon the Lord...."
As I sit here this evening, and I think of the things I have posted over the years and especially the last 4 months, I know that through the years I have waited on the Lord and done all I could to be positive here.
I waited for him to show me the college to attend.
I waited for Him to show me the man I was to marry.
I waited for Him when things were rough while in college.
I, with my husband waited on the Lord while on deputation from 2003 through 2007.
We waited on the Lord when we didn't understand why, and ended up in WV.
We though hard waited on the Lord when all seemed to be falling apart and we had to move Maine in 2012. I said had, because at the time that was what it seemed to be. Then we got here and through the love and help of some very dear people we made it through a very rough time.
Then November 2014 came, yes I know I have mentioned this before and I won't labor on it, but after a counseling session the other day, lose of sleep and lots of prayer I believe sharing the following with you may help someone out there who, as I, feel you are failing. Or maybe you feel as I do, that you have let people down or been a disappointment. Maybe you feel as I do, that I'm constantly having to say I'm Sorry (which I'm not saying to one particular friend cause I'll get in trouble :) ) Have I waited on the Lord through all this? Probably not as I should have but I did cont to serve him through the church he's allowed us to join and be a part of.
Friend when you have been through anything no matter how painful it may be. As I finally figured out I Needed help! Yes, the former Missionary wife, the former pastor wife needed help. We are all human and we all at times need to step back and say, "please help me".
If you are reading this and if you know me, you know that I'm not a complainer, I don't whine about my life and the last I thing I want anyone to think as they read this is that I'm whining or complaining. That is not how I'm wanting it to come across. I simply want to say, if you have been, are or in some cases you could end up going through a life changing situation. Remember to Wait on God. Isaiah 40:31 was put in the Bible for a purpose. Now let me say, I'm NOT a patient person. I don't wait patiently and as I learned from my counseling session I have to be patient with myself as well.
I've not arrived by no means -- I'm still healing from a situation. That is why I finally asked my Pastors wife for help. Yes, it took me 4 months but that's not because I didn't trust her, or feel she could help I honestly didn't want to share things at the time. Others can jump right in and say, this is wrong, this is the situation and care for it immediately. Don't judge one who make take longer.
Our lives are all so very different if you have lost a loved one, a friend, gone through loosing a church, loosing your pastor, being told you won't ever make it in the ministry or whatever it is..... It takes time to heal. God is good and as His children he is there for us all the time.
Now I don't know how much of this will help anyone and if you are reading this I decided to post this. There are things I'll never share here and there are things that if I'm asked privately I may open up for discussion. I just want you to know as a blogger I want to be a help and encouragement to my readers not a discouragement.
May God bless you and know you are Loved by our Heavenly Father.
As I sit here this evening, and I think of the things I have posted over the years and especially the last 4 months, I know that through the years I have waited on the Lord and done all I could to be positive here.
I waited for him to show me the college to attend.
I waited for Him to show me the man I was to marry.
I waited for Him when things were rough while in college.
I, with my husband waited on the Lord while on deputation from 2003 through 2007.
We waited on the Lord when we didn't understand why, and ended up in WV.
We though hard waited on the Lord when all seemed to be falling apart and we had to move Maine in 2012. I said had, because at the time that was what it seemed to be. Then we got here and through the love and help of some very dear people we made it through a very rough time.
Then November 2014 came, yes I know I have mentioned this before and I won't labor on it, but after a counseling session the other day, lose of sleep and lots of prayer I believe sharing the following with you may help someone out there who, as I, feel you are failing. Or maybe you feel as I do, that you have let people down or been a disappointment. Maybe you feel as I do, that I'm constantly having to say I'm Sorry (which I'm not saying to one particular friend cause I'll get in trouble :) ) Have I waited on the Lord through all this? Probably not as I should have but I did cont to serve him through the church he's allowed us to join and be a part of.
Friend when you have been through anything no matter how painful it may be. As I finally figured out I Needed help! Yes, the former Missionary wife, the former pastor wife needed help. We are all human and we all at times need to step back and say, "please help me".
If you are reading this and if you know me, you know that I'm not a complainer, I don't whine about my life and the last I thing I want anyone to think as they read this is that I'm whining or complaining. That is not how I'm wanting it to come across. I simply want to say, if you have been, are or in some cases you could end up going through a life changing situation. Remember to Wait on God. Isaiah 40:31 was put in the Bible for a purpose. Now let me say, I'm NOT a patient person. I don't wait patiently and as I learned from my counseling session I have to be patient with myself as well.
I've not arrived by no means -- I'm still healing from a situation. That is why I finally asked my Pastors wife for help. Yes, it took me 4 months but that's not because I didn't trust her, or feel she could help I honestly didn't want to share things at the time. Others can jump right in and say, this is wrong, this is the situation and care for it immediately. Don't judge one who make take longer.
Our lives are all so very different if you have lost a loved one, a friend, gone through loosing a church, loosing your pastor, being told you won't ever make it in the ministry or whatever it is..... It takes time to heal. God is good and as His children he is there for us all the time.
Now I don't know how much of this will help anyone and if you are reading this I decided to post this. There are things I'll never share here and there are things that if I'm asked privately I may open up for discussion. I just want you to know as a blogger I want to be a help and encouragement to my readers not a discouragement.
May God bless you and know you are Loved by our Heavenly Father.
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